I have big goals for this year.
I want to be healthy. I can’t say I want to lose XX number of pounds, because my body does not typically cooperate. Because of my cursed thyroid, my size is what it is. However, I can be healthier, even if I never lose a pound. (Oh, but, please, oh please, let me lose a pound!)
I want to be happier. I know that sounds like a strange goal, but it’s true. I want to do what I need to do to relieve stress and anxiety, so the depression that has been creeping into my mind doesn’t take over my life. The “happier” includes exercise (bleh!), mind control (on my own mind, not others – but that is a thought!) and simple stress relief activities. It includes aromatherapy and just being nicer to myself in general.
I want to be more purposeful in my days. In what I say, in what I do, in where I go and who I meet, I want to find a purpose. I want God to use me. I want to allow Him to use me.
I’ve got a lot to do!
As I sit here on January 2, wondering how to get started on everything, I have found myself overwhelmed. I want to make a healthy meal plan. I want to make a healthy exercise plan. Plan, plan, plan! I’m good at planning. The follow through? Well, let’s not talk about it.
As I was struggling to even begin to know where to begin, a thought went through my mind. I can’t help but think this was not my thought but God’s message to me. A phrase began repeating in my mind. It was in song form. If you know the song, it is about to be stuck in your mind, too. You’re welcome.
“Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added until you. (Hallelu, hallelujah.)”
“Seek ye first.” Those words are easy to say (or in my case, sing), but they are so much harder to live by! I wake up in the morning, and I’m busy. I’m already thinking about work, thinking about what’s for dinner, thinking, thinking, thinking. It’s no wonder I don’t feel rested when I wake up, because I’m pretty sure I think all night long. This is evidenced by how many times I wake up and realize I was just editing in my sleep, just as I do for my job in real life.
“Seek ye first.” How would my days change if I put aside work, laundry and dinner, and I just looked for God? Do I even know where to look for His Kingdom?
“Seek ye first.” I pondered the actual verse, Matthew 6:33, and I realized I had just been given the answer to my quest for change in the new year.
- If I look for God first, I can fill myself with His word instead of with the doughnuts and chocolate I sometimes use to sedate the skinny girl in me. Instead of turning to food to sedate myself, I can look to Him for comfort and satisfaction. Then, I would just use food to fill the physical hunger I have, and I would be much more likely to eat foods that will benefit my body. (Proverbs 27:7)
- If I look for God first, I can do so by walking outside. This would give me a chance to get fresh air and exercise, both of which would help me be healthier. Since I’m low on vitamin D, the sunshine would do me some good, too. (Romans 1:20)
- If I look for God first, I can relieve my stress and anxiety through prayer. Instead of worrying about the things I’m worrying about, I could truly turn them over to God. Then, I could allow myself to relax and take comfort that God is in control, so I don’t have to be. (John 14:1)
- If I look for God first, I might just find my own purpose. I know He is in charge, and I know He has work for me to do. If I just pay attention, I might see all kinds of opportunities around me. Is He trying to use me to make all things work together for good? (Romans 8:28)
So, as much as I thought I was struggling to get a start on the new year, I’m not! If I can just first seek the kingdom of God and His righteousness, He will take care of the rest.
God, Instead of helping me with my new year's resolutions, help me to seek you. ~Al